I woke up feeling cranky today. Initially it was just about exercise (yes that was the very first thing on my mind this morning). I woke up thinking that I should set my alarm earlier once or twice a week to get up and do some sort of exercise in the morning. That would make sense, but then my brain started being negative thinking things about how I wouldn’t be able to stick to that or that I’d give up. Basically all I had were thoughts of failure.
I realized that it’s that exact sort of thinking that holds me back. I don’t believe in myself. I always have a negative reaction or excuse that is stopping me from trying. It’s really frustrating because I know I can accomplish many things. I am a very capable person; however I don’t give myself enough credit anymore.
I expect immediate results. I am very impatient and when I get a plan in my head I’ll do it for a day or so, but I expect things to change rapidly and as you know for lasting results things won’t change like that. It takes time and effort.
I have time, but I’d rather use it to sit on the couch looking up stupid things online. I have the tools, but I don’t want to go to the tiny fitness center because it seems boring, or because I’d have to bring my daughter. I can’t go to a fitness club because I can’t afford it or I don’t want to put my daughter in daycare longer. I can’t go for a bike ride because I have a flat tire. I can’t walk on break during work because I don’t want to get sweaty. Do you notice a pattern here? EXCUSES. That’s all I have stopping me. Damn excuses. There are some valid points, however there are ways around things or other solutions.
I’m being resistant. It is hard to change my daily habits. I am a creature of habit and exercise and eating right are not habits. You’d think I would have learned a habit from doing the SlimGenics program for seven months and eating healthy. Those “habits” didn’t last too long after I ended the program and that was my downfall.
I know the excuses I have; I just don’t know how to get out of this funk. *Wait, technically how long is a funk? Can it last for years? Hmm….