I feel really
I feel really fat…..
Yes, that is how I feel. I then feel paralyzed to do anything to change how I feel. I basically sulk in my misery and feel bad every time I eat anything, yet I continue to do it. Why do I do this to myself? Why can’t I either feel comfortable in my body OR do something to change what I do like. Instead I sit here on my butt and write a blog about how crappy I feel. Is it doing me any good to be doing basically nothing?
I know I’m having a little pity party, and I’m sure others can relate. I just get so frustrated at myself that I weighed 239 pounds, lost 20 pounds by exercising then lost 66 with SlimGenics and now I am gaining back some of that weight. I am not happy about this.
I AM SCARED.
I am scared of being back to square one, or worse being heavier then I used to be.
I am scared that I’ll continue to sulk and be unmotivated to change my ways.
I am afraid of my daughter catching onto my bad eating/lack of exercise habits.
I am afraid of hating myself forever.
*Sigh* I still feel fat.