Yes I LOVE and HATE food. I’m constantly thinking of food I LOVE and I HATE that. I don’t know why I’m always thinking of food. It’s never-ending, it’s always on my mind and it’s really irritating. So irritating, that I am annoyed at myself for thinking this way all the time. I don’t know how to change my thinking. Someone says “What should we do?” I immediately think, hmm, what restaurant should we go to. I am driving and think of all the places as I drive by them. I sit on the couch and think of all the foods I don’t have in the house, but want.
I need to listen to my body because I’ve realized that I eat for every reason – except usually hunger, because I hardly ever let myself become hungry. Yes, I think it’s a good idea to eat every few hours so that your blood sugar doesn’t drop to low, but really do I need to be eating as often (or as much) as I usually do? NO, I don’t, but I still do it. Why?
Why do I feel the constant need to always be eating…..it’s such a bad habit. I’m just frustrated. I HATE the prep and cost that goes along with food. It drives me batty.
I’ve always had such a sweet tooth and LOVE chocolate and other yummy sweet dessert type foods. Then again I LOVE most fried, greasy foods and starches too. It’s hard to limit myself, I feel deprived and then I rebel against myself.
Why do I feel the need to have multiple desserts/treats everyday? I would like to find a balance where I could 1-2 treats a week, but that sounds 100% unfathomable for me. I don’t think I could achieve that, it sounds like too little of an amount.
What is wrong with my brain that I LOVE food and yet HATE everything about it at the same time? Does anyone have any answers?