I’m going to start a new 30-day series on things I’ve discovered while on my weight loss journey.
Today is day 14.
I’ve found that some days I think I’m in control of my food choices and other days I think that I have no control. Something just takes over and I have no say in it. Now, I know the latter is not true, HOWEVER I do feel that way at times.
I try to have the will power to say no, to make better choices and to be “good”, but sometimes it just doesn’t go that way for me. Some days I feel like crap and then I eat like crap as a result. I fear so bad being fat again, yet I don’t always make the necessary choices to not go in that direction. I let that part of me make choices that are not best for me. Why do I do this? Why do I let myself sabotage myself? Over what? Eating something tasty and feeling bad about it after only to cover it up with more tasty food? Ummm, that’s lame.
Now I must warn you all, you’re reading this after I’ve drank a bottle of wine (to try to replace feeling bad about food) and I’m on a self-pity trip. So, as a reminder to all of you….. I am human and I am not perfect (not that anyone thought that I had it all together anyways, right?) and that this blog deals with my real life.
Anyone else feel like dealing with food struggles will always be an issue? I hope not, because it totally sucks.