I’m really proud of myself right now and that is a hard thing for me to admit or even feel. Usually things just aren’t good enough for me, but tonight I’m going to take pride in not giving in. I was in a great mood earlier today yet still having a case of the munchies. I tried distracting and realizing that NO, I am not hungry. I can’t believe how much my brain focused on food, especially chocolate. It’s all I could think about despite how hard I tried. Anyways later in the day I got REALLY cranky and just down. I knew that I couldn’t eat off-plan food in front of my boyfriend because he is really supportive and would have said something to try to deter me and I didn’t want that, so I figured in secret that when he left I would woof down the half bag of chips that was left of his and that I’d eat some Valentine snacks that my daughter got.
What? Really? Was I really making a secret plan to binge on junk?
Let’s re-evaluate. I stepped back from thinking that and went back to read my first blogs when on SlimGenics. I wanted to remember how good it felt to be eating great food and losing weight. I know how I feel when I eat crap, it isn’t good, but yet I still have the mental block that these foods taste delicious and that I can sabotage myself by eating them. Hmm, now that isn’t something positive, but it’s turned around. I took an honest look at what I was feeling and looked at my options.
I realized that in my first blog post I said that my goal was to lose 50 pounds in 5 months, which would be March 10th. Well, as of yesterday I’m only 1.25 pounds away from hitting 50 pounds lost and it’s only February 13th! I’m about a month ahead of my original goal. Wow! That made me feel like I just can’t sabotage myself right now, why would I want to do that? I can do this!
If you’ve been keeping up with me you know that I changed my goal to lose 60 pounds overall. I’m getting SO very close since as of yesterday morning I had lost 48.75 pounds 🙂 It’s so amazing and yes I am proud of myself, despite some ups and downs. I’m still doing it, I’m feeling great and I know you can to if you’re struggling.
I hope I can be a slight glimmer of inspiration for some of you. It’s hard some days, but just keep pushing through and you will succeed.
Of all my options I decided that making a home cooked dinner was the best choice for me this evening. There is a meat loaf in the oven, potatoes ready to be boiled and green beans waiting to be cooked. It sounds like I will be 100% on-plan again today!